Beautiful Redemption Kami Garcia

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.”“I know.”“Then again, it’s not like there’s a right way to end a person’s life, is there?” She pinched my chin, smiling down into my eyes.I had memorized it.The smile, her face.Everything.It was all I had left during the time she was gone.I’d always known she was alive somewhere, in some way.She had saved Macon and sent me the songs that shepherded me through every strange chapter of my life with the Casters.She’d been there the whole time, just like she had when she was alive.It was only one moment, but I wanted to keep it that way as long as I could.I don’t know how we got to the kitchen table.I don’t remember anything except the solid warmth of her arms.But there I sat, in my regular chair, as if the past few years had never even happened.There were books everywhere—and from the looks of it, my mom was partway through most of them, as usual.A sock, probably fresh from the laundry, was stuck in The Divine Comedy.A napkin poked halfway out of The Iliad, and on top of that a fork marked her place in a volume of Greek mythology.The kitchen table was full of her beloved books, one pile of paperbacks higher than the next.I felt like I was back in the library with Marian.The tomatoes sizzled in the pan, and I breathed in the scent of my mother—yellowing paper and burnt oil, new tomatoes and old cardboard, all laced through with cayenne pepper.No wonder libraries made me so hungry.My mom slid a blue and white china platter onto the table between us.Dragonware.I smiled because it had been her favorite.She dropped hot tomatoes onto a paper towel, sprinkling pepper across the plate.“There you go.Dig in.”I tucked my fork into the nearest slice.“You know, I haven’t eaten one of these since you—since the accident.” The tomato was so hot it burned my tongue.I looked at my mom.“Are we—is this—?”She returned the look blankly.I tried again.“You know.Heaven?”She laughed, pouring sweet tea into two tall glasses—tea being the only other thing my mom knew how to make.“No, not Heaven, EW.Not exactly.”I must have looked worried, like I thought we had somehow ended up in the other place.But that couldn’t be right either, because—as cheesy as it sounded—being with my mom again was Heaven, whether or not the universe thought of it that way.Then again, the universe and I hadn’t agreed on much lately.My mom pressed her hand against my cheek and smiled as she shook her head.“No, this isn’t any kind of final resting place, if that’s what you mean.”“Then why are we here?”“I’m not sure.You don’t get a user’s manual when you check in.” She took my hand.“I always knew I was here because of you—some unfinished business, something I needed to teach you or tell you or show you.That’s why I sent you the songs.”“The Shadowing Songs.”“Exactly.You kept me plenty busy.And now that you’re here, I feel like we were never apart.” Her face clouded over.“I always hoped I would get to see you again.But I hoped I would be waiting a lot longer.I’m so sorry.I know it must be terrible for you right now, leaving Amma and your father.And Lena.”I nodded.“It sucks.”“I know.I felt the same way,” she said.“About Macon?” The words came tumbling out of my mouth before I could stop them.Her cheeks went red.“I guess I deserved that.But not everything that happens in a mother’s life is something she needs to discuss with her seventeen-year-old son.”“Sorry.”She squeezed my hand.“You were the person I didn’t want to leave, most of all.And you were the person I worried about leaving, most of all.You and your father.“Your father, thankfully, is in the exceptional care of the Ravenwoods.Lena and Macon have him under some powerful Casts, and Amma’s spinning stories of her own.Mitchell has no idea what’s happened to you.”“Really?”She nodded.“Amma tells him you’re in Savannah with your aunt, and he believes it.” Her smile wavered, and she looked past me into the shadows.I knew she must be worried about my dad, despite whatever Casts he was under.My sudden departure from Gatlin was probably hurting her as much as it was me—standing by and watching it all happen, without being able to do anything about it.“But it’s not a long-term solution, Ethan.Right now everyone is just doing the best that they can.That’s usually how it is.”“I remember.” I’d been through it once before.We both knew when.She didn’t say anything after that, just picked up a fork of her own.We ate together in silence for the rest of the afternoon, or for a moment.I couldn’t tell which was which anymore, and I wasn’t sure it mattered.We sat out on the back porch picking shiny-wet cherries out of the colander and watching the stars come out.The sky had faded to a darkish blue, and the stars appeared in crazy bright clusters.I saw stars from the Caster sky and the Mortal sky [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]

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